I got my teaching job last summer and I remember quite well how I wished the summer would end soon so I can already start teaching. Haha. That was a year ago. Right now, I wish the summer would stretch longer so I don’t have to go to work soon. I still have a month of vacation and God knows how I savor each day of it whether I spend it somewhere or I spend it at home.
I am still in a crisis. I still don’t know if I want to continue teaching. Thing number 1 is, I need a job and thing number 2 is, it can’t be just any job so more or less, I will just go on with the teaching. Being an immigrant is playing a major part in my crisis and I am slowly getting tired of it.
Why can’t I get a better teaching job? Because I need a nostrification. Why do I need that? Because my degree is not recognized here. Why is that? Because I got it outside of EU. So why not just get a nostrification? Because it is a very complicated and a very long process.
And why can’t you get other jobs like an office job? Because my German is not good enough. And why can’t you get a manual job? Because I am not sure if I want that and my husband definitely doesn’t want that for me.
It all comes down to being a foreigner in this country and the fact that I want to have a baby and be a mother soon doesn’t make things easy for me either. I feel that I am running out of time and my chances are thin. At this point of my life, it is either get a better teaching job or be a mother and that’s unfair because I want both so badly.
But how am I going manage both at the same time?
Girl, opinion ko lng hah. I don’t think its possible. Mahirap pagsabayin ang pagiging career woman at butihing asawa at ina. You have to choose kung ano ang mas importante sau. Ganyan din ako dati, pro mas pinili kong career-rin ang pagiging asawa. I think mhrap my work + maging asawa. Una, laging kang pagod at kukulangin kau ng husband mo sa oras, mababawasan yung kwentuhan time nyo, something na napakasarap khit nsa balkon lng kayo diba? my time pa na di mo sinasadya na nakakalimutan mo na ang responsibility mo sa asawa mo, tpos kylangan nyo pang mag adjust pagdating sa vcation ng isat-isa. While kong housewife + mother ka, lahat ng time na sayo, full attention ng family mo ang mabibigay mo. Pwede ka naman mag work pag lumalaki na ang bata, and by that time magaling kna sa Deutsch. Ako girl, kahit housewife ako, I tried to stay active + positive pa rin, mrmi akong personal development na iniintindi, ayoko kc magaya sa mga housewife na housewife nlng din tlga ang life nila. Iba parin yung lagi kng updated at natututo. payong kaibigan, family comes first
at pag magkaka baby na kayo, 100 % na nadadagdagan yung lalim nyo mag asawa, mas masaya, matibay at exciting pala talaga 
Awwww… you are not alone. Been there… done that. We all go through that process or crisis and I know you will survive. Lam has lots of good points and I don’t know what else I can say. Maybe follow your heart. It will give you the right direction.